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Friday, March 10, 2006

going/gone bonkers...

sometimes i feel like a coward. maybe i am confusing it with insecurity. maybe not. cant really place it. kinda lost, again! but its for sure, theres this massive inertia problem. otherwise call it comfort zone. im stuck. gravity suddenly(?) acting too strongly. lazy u say? neah i know how that feels. this feels kinda different.

this just feels like i'ma stuck. and theres no wiggle room (ah, another instance of work parlance creeps in...cant help notice there are too many of these intrusions lately..the dull n predictable work me is slowly taking over the normal n crazy me -there! another me definition:normal n crazy! kinda oxymoron rite?- and it just aint rite...wat? u say thaz called growin' up? how boring!..duh wats with all the digressions huh?) at all. for wat? anything apart from wat im stuck in. wat am i stuck in? this thought.

this thought that has many branches. the defining question (there. there! c wat i mean?) is smthg that should sound like 'wat am i doing here'? no. dont go too deep. here is not this world, the reason for existence n all that gud stuff. not just yet. maybe here is at work. but then i have this vague memory of me telling myself -that i kinda like this work. hmmm. maybe then its the ppl. but then they are everywer rite? maybe here is the loneliness. lo! there. we have a winner. its all coming back to me now ;). (is this the real reason i do this? y havent i ever written abt some environmental issue or smthg? duh!)

so feel like going away. but cant. sad. its kinda weird too, like a situation magnet (dyu believe that? i just came up with that crap). every irritation is like a situation enhancer. this sucks!

bleak picture huh? im kinda gud @ exaggeration methinks ;)

8 Comments:

Blogger Tabula_Rasa said...

The pic intrigued me...umm,somehow it didnt seem bleak to me

4:12 AM  
Blogger Lost in trance... said...

:) i was more kinda alluding to the big picture ;) yeah it intruigues me too! kinda sez there are more, maybe similar places to go, but 'this' sucks now...hahaha...

1:58 AM  
Blogger Arti Honrao said...

Hi [after a long time]
Hows life would be a wrong question @ this point of time so I wud just say


Enjoy life
God Bless You
Arti

6:22 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi

hope u ok now...

**** HUGS***

Sherry

3:55 AM  
Blogger Ananya S P said...

Hi

I guess you feel like that cos you are in the transition phase. Sometimes I feel the same too. Cant help it. Best way to tackle this kinda feelin is to keep us engaged in an activity that can ward us off from these swings :)Try your hands at something NEW :)

Anu

8:13 PM  
Blogger Ardra said...

hmmm...u too good at exaggeration- i think- and not sure if that makes me feel relieved either...

and if loneliness cannot be overcome any way to convert it into comfy solitude?

cheers
ardra

and yes- u'r comment on my post did make a difference :-)

4:34 AM  
Blogger Bittu's Mamma said...

we don't have room to wiggle because we've limited ourselves, don't u think?
want to see u happy again!*hugs*

7:47 AM  
Blogger Lost in trance... said...

@ arti honrao: hey :) njoin life in all its colors ;)at grey now, red is, i hope, around the corner!
@ Sherry: i kinda miss u...wer art thou?
@ anusha: transition phase? *intrusion alert*
@ ardra: haha..i liked that commment...lets start a cult or smthg?
@ bittus mama: me 2! and yeah, i get this claustrophobic feeling all da time...shud b the rest of the world :p

5:18 PM  

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